11 months in. That is absolutely astonishing to me, and just like that, we are at the end of 2024. It feels so weird for my brain to process I'm not in 2023 anymore, let alone about to enter 2025. This year has truly been a rollercoaster; filled with ups and downs, but that euphoria from the rise courses through my veins.
It has been a few months since my last post, this interim time was routine and working towards one goal: Maine. I have noticed that I need something to look forward to in order to provide value to my life. I worked three jobs saving up for my trip to Maine for the week of Halloween. During this time, I was also taking three college classes, playing piano, attending therapy, and just trying to survive. I learned that I could achieve wonders if I put my mind to it. My trip to Maine was everything I needed and more. It was so nice to see my people and those who I cherish as my family. It was nostalgic and at first, I felt like an imposter. As if I shouldn't have been there, I was a ghost. After a few days, that feeling slowly subsided because I had this one opportunity to come and have everyone I love in one place. These next few years are so unpredictable, and I can't guarantee everyone will be together.
As I look back on this year and all the places I have been, I realized that I experienced more than I thought. From finishing my first year of college in Maine to spending spring break in Ontario, Canada, to then experiencing my first pride in NYC, and attending two concerts in Philly, I can't say I haven't done things. This is what excites me in life, the opportunity to experience and be alive. I have thought about and learn to understand the word 'sonder' more and more every day. These trips have granted me the chance to meet new people and love their lives, and for me to learn about myself and what I want for my future.
Speaking of future, on the last full day of my trip in Maine, doing homework with my best friends, I found out news that would change my life. After waiting months upon months for a decision, I was accepted into the school in Australia, Monash University. Offered a spot in their double degree program, if finances work in my favor, I will be studying for a bachelor's in arts and media communications. This news absolutely shocked my system because I had partially given up on it. My new plan was to travel the beginning of 2025 and then return to a university in the fall. It changed the plans for my year, but as I am equally excited, I am nervous if I am going to be able to make it work. Depending on financial aid, it will determine whether I can attend or not.
These next few months will determine everything. I am excited to have plans that will affect the next years of my life. I am also intrigued to see where I end up in the world. I would love to spend the last few months of my teens and early twenties traveling and in cities. I want to explore and capitalize on lack of certain responsibilities without feeling that pressure to have everything figured out. This post was a really an update, but it feels nice to write again.
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Until next time,
your hopeful/less stranger
11:33am
11.11.2024
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