There is a little over a month left before 2024 leaves us for the last time ever. We will never get it back. That is both a curse and a blessing, and my brain cannot even fathom that it has gone by this fast. My brain is still processing that I have been back in Pa for six months, and that I didn't return to school in the fall. That isn't the reason why I wanted to write though.
As much as I only have one month left of the year, I still have a month left of the year to end it off strong. It's time to take charge and start to instill the habits I want to take with me into the new year. This is really so weird to think about, but I have about half a year left until I am no longer a teen. Nineteen has been such an interesting age. It represents the dichotomy where you are an adult while still being a kid. I don't even fully know how to regard myself with a specific label. While my mind wants to move up and get a big-girl job, for lack of better words, I also understand that I have time and don't have all these responsibilities that grown adults have. It has been a weird time for my brain trying to figure out my next moves.
Regarding this last week and a month, I want to set myself up for success when transitioning into the new year. For the last three months of being in Pa, this is my time to invest in myself. I will fall in love with moving my body and becoming stronger. Through snowboarding and hopefully accomplishing falling a lot less, and joining a gym that I feel comfortable in, I will create a healthy relationship that I haven't experienced yet as an adult. I have slowly started to fall in love with running again and I am so excited to see where it goes. I will continue piano and finish Mozart and Je Te Lasserai De Mots. I am so happy that I started playing piano again. Dopamine rushes through my brain like a drug, and I can't get enough of it. I am excited to see my future with it because I will not be giving it up again. I also have some exciting renovations happening with this blog, and hopefully a new edition that brings a new future.
2024 started off strong and it will end just as great. My life is shifting into a waiting period, and after these productive and joy-filled six months, I understand that this next period will not be easy. It is going to require quite a bit of grit and hard work to achieve my goals, and most importantly, pass my two classes. Without any inking to want to finish these classes, this is just something I have to do. I have about two weeks and then a weight will be lifted. Until then, I have to sit down and focus. Although there is a certain air of depression with the changing of seasons, I have come to accept this feeling. "In order to enjoy the light of better days, I have to be able to weather through the storm." I know there is no way that if I put in the work, I won't receive a reward. So, to the next month, I'm coming for you with everything I have.
Until next time,
your hopeful/less stranger
6:23pm
11.21.2024
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