The Life Impossible

It is so interesting watching and experiencing the evolution of falling in love with moving your body without obligations. August, I made the conscious decision to invest in myself and try to become comfortable going to the gym. I will admit, that was so hard because I could not understand why I was so afraid to go to the gym when I had been going for years and played sports my whole life. Somewhere along the way, I understood that it was because there was no longer an obligation and active repercussion attached to exercise. Exercise had become a burden in my life and did not represent a period of my life where I felt free in my body. These past eight months have not involved perfection, but rather an active dedication to making myself uncomfortable and becoming better. I am so thankful for this winter season and having the opportunity to invest time to snowboard. I absolutely fell in love with snowboarding, but even further, the winter. I think there is something so valuable in finding activities unique to a season because it makes you appreciate time passing. There's only around two weeks left in season, and I will make an effort to enjoy this melting snow once more.

Since August, I have fallen in love with running outside and with the warming weather, this sign of spring has me ecstatic to explore the outdoors. I have found love in a small gym where I can read a good book while on the treadmill and finally confidently use most weights without the fear of others judging. Outside of this, I think one of the most detrimental shifts was that I now crave to work out and move my body. I have fallen in love with the process of becoming. As I continue to await the decisions from the colleges, I have grown to enjoy this mundane routine. Where work controls the majority of my week, but I still have time to treat myself to charging and valuable experiences.

This past weekend (Sunday to Tuesday), I explored New York City for the first time with one of my best friends. It was such a fun trip filled with food galore and memories to last a lifetime. Stuffed with experiences, we definitely walked enough to have food satiate an insatiable hunger. This trip also marked me falling in love with yet another city. The fast-paced culture with a hoard of so many businesses and honestly the comfort of so many people pushing to chase their dreams. I definitely imagine myself living a city for a good part of my twenties and truly think I will thrive bring surrounded by a plethora of people and cultures.

Life has been in a weird limbo as of late, but I kind of like it. I feel as if my body is in tune with the changing of seasons, and the world is welcoming spring with open arms. It's been nice to sit with my thoughts and understand what makes my body feel best. This is large transitionary period, filled the waiting game; something I have learned and become quite familiar with. This period of time to set to challenge myself. I want to experience boredom and learn to sit with it instead of looking immediately for something to give me stimulation. I will hunker down on my personal goals and finishing vamping this blog, which I am currently working on a project that will be a new addition. These next few months are for exploration, whether of places or me.

That's all for now.

Until next time,

your hopeful/less stranger

12:49pm

03.08.2025